Do not feign affection, be yourself, a wise adage. It is a great struggle for many of us to reveal ourselves, and the inner recesses of our being. Not impossible, the universe itself continuously unfold.
Hardship and feeling of helplessness. Be yourself, it is 'normal' to feel that way. Nobody feel secured everyday, even the saints have failed in this department. Peter, the Rock failed Jesus, not once, but 3 times. Peter learned. Peter realized he was flesh, and weak, just like you and me. Who is the strongest among us ? Samson failed despite of his physical and moral strength. Samson was desperate briefly, gained back his gifts from the Divine Hand...and destroyed evil, in the all seeing Eyes, it was enough. You are forgiven. Be yourself.